환희 “심장을 놓쳐서”

My finals are over! They’ve been over, actually. I  have been flying free for a week , and am too embarrassed to send e-mails to my professors to ask them to send me my grades. So, I’m waiting until the school system updates my transcript with them. For now, I am certain I have an A in my British Literature course and possibly a B in Political Science. I’m anxious to know what I’ve gotten in my American and World Literature classes. I’ve been checking and refreshing my school’s portal page daily but nothing is posted!! It’s normally posted after a week the semester ends, but the holidays delay everything. I’m wanting to know but am fearful of what I may see. I know I shouldn’t expect much since I didn’t put as much effort as I should have into these two classes.

2009 is coming to a close in 4 days. Who would’ve thunk this year would end so quickly? I don’t know what I’ve done all year long or how time has flown by so quickly. I’m kind of lost in time! I hope that I will have a better year in 2010. I hope that I will accomplish more things I’ve been wanting to do but haven’t done because I’ve been procrastinating/ fearful. I hope that I will do things and act upon them immediately, so I can get them done (obviously, I need to STOP procrastinating!!!!). I should really stop with it, since I complain that I have nothing to do, but always push everything back to the last minute. -__- I finally see that I’ve got tons to do, but haven’t really wanted to do them. Haha Lame. I don’t plan on writing out a specific list for my new year’s resolution. I don’t ever stick to what I’ve written down; I actually don’t follow them to spite it. Odd, right? One would think that writing it down would encourage me to stick with it… but when I do that, I regress and hold back. I guess it’s because it’s forecasting my future, and I don’t want to know it. (I don’t want to have my palms read by a psychic or horoscopes. Those things effect me to no end. It irks me because I know I shouldn’t believe in them, but I cannot help believing like those words will come into fruition!!! Psychology confuses me!) Anyhow, I’m steering clear from writing down specifics.

The end of this year has progressed a bit better than the beginning. I’m slightly developing a communicable relationship with the males of the family. I’ve grown up almost attached to my sisters’ hips… but have cast a distance between myself and brothers.

I’m finally studying the Korean language again. (다시~~~~!!) It’s been such a long time. I’ve begun to write out lyrics in Hangul, and it is helping me a lot more than studying out of the book. I get to practice writing, reading, and listening all at the same time; this method is a lot more fun than what I’ve done in the past. Reciting from the text book didn’t help since 1) I couldn’t learn the correct pronunciation, 2) I kept falling asleep because there was an awful lot to stomach, and 3) (on a separate note) having a native Korean teach me isn’t going too well… 😦

Side note: I need to replenish my writing juice. I’m on empty. 😦

이승환 “사랑이 어떻게 그래요”

>>>>> I like the melody of this song (haven’t a clue what it’s about).. Finally recognized that it reminds me of Nell’s style!

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